Solitude over Men: Domestic Violence is Too Common, Buying Overpriced Weed
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Monday. 2025. Oya Obinidodo. All rights reserved. |
Today's no different than any other day. I'm avoiding pedophiles, bullies, incest people, and people that bite me. Their faces have been grossing me out for years and I still have to tune their incestuous mean voices out of my head. Those mean, gay, tightly knit bullies still look like they're having orgies together, and I don't want to be around that because I don't get down like that.
The homemade French Dip Sandwich
Yesterday, I was able to make the French dip sandwich and I didn't really like it. I seasoned the roast beef, made the au just sauce, and put some of the sauce to the side. Then I simmered the meat in the sauce for about 10 minutes, while toasting the French baguette. Then I put the meat on the baguette and added provolone cheese and toasted the sandwich once more. After that, it was ready.
After I tasted the sandwich and dipped it in the sauce, I realized I didn't like it. It tasted nothing like Panera Bread, and I don't even like the sauce at Panera Bread, I only like the sandwich itself. I decided that I wouldn't make the au jus again, and that I would just eat a cold cut roast beef sandwich, with a side of kettle chips by itself.
The sandwich was little more calories than I thought too. Even though I threw a little piece of it away, and exercised for 30 minutes, I still went over my calorie limit, which is 1261 per day. I weighed in at about 124 this afternoon, which isn't too bad. I don't stress out too bad over a gaining couple of pounds. My goal weight is still 122, but sometimes I have cheat days, especially when I'm really stressed out.
My response To watching a recent tragedy on the news
Besides staying on a diet, I saw a news story on TV yesterday that was extremely disturbing, but before I get into the story, I want to say that I'm not the only woman in the world that has survived domestic violence. Domestic violence is extremely common, and it makes me hate myself even more. I don't want to be like the other victims and survivors. I wanted a better life than that. I'm sure they all did, but being a survivor of so much violence feels basic, and I feel like I don't stand out anymore.
Anyways, I saw a story on social media about a white girl, that started dating a black murderer named Terrell. Terrell killed her two year old son, which was not by him, behind her back and then went on television with the white girl, acting like he was a concerned stepfather. The toddler went missing and the young white woman wanted justice. Terrell denied any involvement and was let go. He was standing right beside her during the press conference acting like he didn't do anything!
Terrell was like "I hope they find my stepson, I treat him like he is my own child and I am sad that this happened." The white girl kept saying "This is disgusting, I want my baby back and I hope they find him." She said that the paternal side of child's family teased her because she was white and was dating black men. The white girl even had the murderer's name tattooed on her neck. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.
Eventually, her child's body was discovered and it was Terrell that killed him. It was so tragic. How can a woman give herself to a black man so heinous and sickening?! She could've chose a better partner to bring around her child. In the end, the murderer was given a life sentence. He had the word "blessed" tattooed on his arm, but the case he caught wasn't so big of a blessing.
It's cases like that, that makes me aware of how cruel men can be, especially black men. I've never dated a white man, but I know that black men are very violent and evil, especially towards vulnerable, single, lonely women.
There's sickos everywhere
That's not the only thing I saw. I saw some more sickening cases on Law & Crime too. I saw a woman that found a severed head in her house because her son murdered someone, and I saw a gay white couple, who was from Georgia, raping and torturing their two minor adopted sons. They received 100 years in prison. It's a sick world, and watching the news reminds me everyday.
That's not the only thing I saw on YouTube. I saw a video of a black man explaining how easy black women on the East Coast are. He said that black women on the East Coast, invite men into their homes on the first night and are real easy in bed. I became more aware. I wasn't the only woman being easy back in the days. I'm sure I was sharing those men with a bunch of other women.
Conclusion
I don't live like that anymore. After experiencing domestic violence from multiple men over the past decade, I finally learned not to open up to strangers that might harm me. I take extra precautions to protect myself, my body, health, and my identity. I can't just get in the bed with some random creep and start getting beat up everyday. That's no way to live. It's not worth it. I rather just stay alone. It's much more peaceful that way. Even though there are still some sick f*cks out here harassing me, I still know that I can't go running to a stranger for protection.
I owned one of the greatest Pitbull mixes in America: I tried to make a documentary of my deceased pitbull 💐
Yesterday after watching hours of extremely old episodes of the Dog whisperer, a show that's been around for two decades that I didn't even know existed, I decided that I wanted to make a documentary about my deceased pitbull bull. I wanted to retrieve the 911 call from the Illinois (the state where she died) emergency call center. Unfortunately, their non emergency only led to the police department.
I'm trying to avoid the police at all cost, so I had to cancel the documentary. I'm not going to call the police to retrieve the 2022 emergency phone call. I think having that call is a vital piece to the documentary and without it, I can not create one. I'm still protecting my deceased dog's ashes. I will not leave them and I will not bury them. I love my pitbull forever.