Just Because I'm in Your City, Doesn't Mean I'm looking for Sex!

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I'm staying celibate because I don't like the way people make my body feel. They make my body feel gay, transgender, and stinky, and I'm not gay at all. People, especially sexually predators, always think I want sex just because they see me in their city. That's not true at all. I'm not sexually active and I'm not looking for sex.

I'm not sexually charged and I'm not a nympho. Some men call me bum because I don't take my clothes off for them. That's okay, they can call me a bum. I'm not Nicki Minaj (age 41), and I'm not Ice Spice (age 24) and I don't follow their cult. I'm not a bisexual sex symbol for these men. I'm not sexually attractive to both sexes at all. I'm only attracted to men. Men are not attracted to me. Men are more attracted to each other than they are to me. I just don't look good or desirable to them, and that is something I can not change. I don't have the type of mental or financial stability they're looking for, and I never will. I'll never be popular enough for a man. I'm going to be single forever. At the end of the day, these men rejection towards me doesn't even matter because I don't have a body or a mind for gay people. I don't want them to see it.

Gay people are always trying to make me look and feel nasty 24/7. Their sexual perversion is a nuisance to me. I don't date. There are too many gays. They say mean things about me and they bully me all my life. The gays have been around since the beginning of time. Their nastiness has been around for decades. Their sexual orientation is permanent and does not change, like my heterosexuality doesn't change. Gays get gayer and gayer with time, and I get straighter and straighter. Their faces are way more narcissistic, ugly, and gay these days then they were back in the days. They are eyesores and they are extremely hard to look at. I hate setting my eyes on the bullies. 

I don't see myself dating any man any time soon. I'm turned off by all the bullying and grossed out by all the downlow sexual predators and murderers. I don't want another man to look at my body. I don't want them to see any part of me at all. I'm not like other women. I'm not their friends and I don't want these men mistaking my identity for another woman, like they usually do. It's disgusting when they confuse me for someone else. 

Most men just see me as a one night stand or a rebound. I don't wanna be the one they run to when they have problems in their other relationships. It's not my job to be there for them and it is not my job to sexually please them. I'm not anyone's wife and I'm not anyone's girlfriend. I don't owe anyone anything. I'm me, and I wish people could see that. I don't bite other people style, people bite mine. 

I don't look up to other women, even if they are rich. Women don't inspire me at all and I don't want these men putting me in a disgusting category with all women. I don't like the way that feels. It feels cloned and gross. I'm an individual. I'm not in a group of women. I don't associate with them and they are not my friends or family. I don't want to be with any more fake ass men that can't see me for who I really am. None of these men are for me. They are all for someone else, and I'm okay with that. I rather be alone than in a nasty domestic violence situation. Domestic violence is wack as hell and according to my recent research, it can lead to death.

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If I die from a murderer, just know these truthful things about me:

• I was not gay, bi, trans, or in the closet, and I never engaged in gay sex at any point in my life. Do not frame me to look like I was in the gay community because that would be completely bogus and fraudulent. Any media source, tabloid, or rumor saying that I'm in the gay community is 100% fake news and is not true. 

• I didn't murder myself and I didn't commit suicide. It was really a murder. 

• I did not paint my nails or pierce my face. Do not paint the nails of my corpse and do not pierce my corpse. Any nail polish on my corpse is absolutely bogus. 

• I did not know the murderer from a can of paint and I did not have friends or a supportive family, and I didn't have a boyfriend, exes, or a spouse. Do not connect me to the murderer in any way shape or form- even if it's someone you think I might know. Trust me, I don't. 

•Every single person that I was related to me bullied me all of my life and were incestuous and sickening towards me and they mentally abused me, mentally and psychologically tortured me, and neglected me. They were selfish, greedy, narcissists, and they did not love me, even if they pretend to. Wake up. See the truth, not what you want to see.

•I was not working as a escort and wasn't an active gang member at the time of my death. 

• I did not attack, rob, provoke, snitch, or stalk the murderer first. I minded my business. 

• I did not want a funeral and I did not want to be buried. I wanted to be cremated because I didn't want any predators, women, or bullies near my corpse. 

• I did not want a candlelight vigil, R.I.P. T-shirts, or any balloons sent in the air. I wanted all these phoney, selfish, sadistic, narcissistic predators to stay the fuck away from me. 

• I did not want my death to be on the news. My death isn't the world's business. 

• I did not want anyone to die with me or around me. I wanted to die alone. 

•I was a serial writer. 

•Just because someone shows you a picture of me, that doesn't mean that I know them. They fake! 

•I hated all women, because they mistreated me like I was gay and mentally retarded and I wasn't. I didn't want them that way and if they say I did, they are a fraud, a bully, a racist, and a liar. I wasn't a retarded gay person and I never had a learning disability. 

•No one tried to save me and people lacked basic empathy for me to the extreme. 

•Any women crying over me are frauds. Their tears are completely bogus. They didn't care and they were never in my life. They teased and bullied me all my life. They called me a "slow tard" , a lame and a bunch of other names. They never invited me anywhere and I didn't want them to. I wanted them all to stay away from me. I did not have not one friend on the face of the earth. If they say they were my friend or fam they are a faggot and a fraud! I been alone all my life and I want to be taken seriously. 

• I was not a goofy, friendly, or a playful person and I was always serious and meant everything I said. 

•I was being bullied to the point of no return at the time of my death and was suffering from mental health problems. Bipolar disorder and mental retardation was not one of my diagnoses. 

• I was being watched and stalked by predators and knew that I was. I recieved alot of unwanted, gross attention from the gay community and people on the downlow. 

•I never traveled outside the U.S. 

• I didn't copy or bite anyone's style. I had my own style. 

• I wasn't in the military. 

•I was 100% single and hated gay women because they cockblocked.

•I was not a voodoo priestess and I hated religion. 

• I didn't have HIV or AIDS or any other diseases. 

•Women are not allowed to mourn for me, keep my urn, or view my corpse. They all need to mind their funky business. I want them to stay away from me after I die, just like I wanted them to stay away from me while I was alive. I want these funky, fake women to mourn for everyone but me. When I pass away, they need to mourn for all those other dead bitches and stay the hell away from me. 

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